Poetry is a great tool in breaking down the walls that we build up around ourselves over time. These walls are built to hide away from the world, or from yourself.
Losing my daughter and battling grief is the hardest thing that I have had to do. It has seen me enter into a really dark place where I considered cutting my life short to be back with her. Deciding to do good and ensure that good comes from her having been here lifted me out of that darkness but the path had only just began in my recovery.
I struggled at first with feeling anything at all, I was numb to pain, fear and joy. But slowly I started to feel the sadness in my grief which was a gateway emotion into others.
Soon I was feeling grief, sadness, love, hope, joy and anger, but they were strange caricatures of the emotions that I knew. They were louder, more pronounced, they were scary.
I decided that I needed to try to understand exactly how I was feeling. Through psychology sessions, talking, writing in a journal and creating poetry, things started to fall back into place.
I have split the poetry contained in the site into six categories as mentioned above and colour coded them so that you can find them according to your mood.
These colours are also reflected when I post to Instagram as well.
